Week 1 @SD. Going pretty alright so far. chill suitemates. okay food. weather could do a lil better haha but the academics….gotta work on it. heh I’ve always wanted to come to this school but..idk why. but now that I’m finally here, I just keep wondering why God sent me here. But I’m sure that He has a purpose for me (= These days I’ve been really….eh..from adjusting and everything but I should really take this time to really learn more about myself and keeping relationships with people :) POSITIVE POSITIVE POSITIVE POSITIVE
Missing LA though. Seeing friends back at home everyday for 7 years made us all grow tired of each other. but now that we are all in different colleges, we all realized that we miss each other. College is def. different from HS but i like it :) i like how we have more freedom and get to really control your own time (=
I really need to do my best and get myself together for my fam and esp. God. In the future, I want to be the one who provides my family with whatever they need and serve God as much as I can. Therefore, even though I don’t know what I want to do, whether it be a nurse or a mechanical engineer, I will do my BEST BEST BEST!! hehe
i love and miss you all!!
i need to stop frkkn crying…like a dumb baby.
wellllll gotta go shower now and catch up on my reading….
pretty unproductive….and it kinda upsets me cus I guess I expected this summer to be super exciting and filled with random stuff like adventures and what not BUT eh.,not really. welll, summer barely started for me. my 3rd week is just ending this week. tryna find a job but its pretty tough. still working on it though (= need some $$ to playplay and save up.
it doesn’t even feel like summer break honestly. it doesn’t even feel like i graduated or even finished high school. whenever I sign into my UCSD account or fill out paperwork for financial aid stuff I do feel it a bit but thats just a once in a while thing. I’m not gonna lie, I’m pretty scared/nervous for college but at the same time i’m excited (= imma meet new people, not have classes everyday, experience the dorm life, and finally take another step in life as an adult. I’m for sure going to be homesick. missing all my friends and church fam. even the ones who I just got to know senior year. but most importantly, my mom and dad. mos def. But that’s the part of growing up so I won’t be too sad about it (= haha. I strongly believe that God is in control and He will protect so I’m not too worried.
wellllll retreat & vbs are coming up~ pretty excited for retreat haha since it’ll be my last one kinda. :/
Dang. Graduation is already here. I knew this day would come, but it came so quickly. I”m here thinking what I should wear under my gown on graduation day but I’m always looking back as my yearbook sits in front of me. Not a lot happened during High school but I had A LOT of AWESOME memories that CAN NOT be replaced. I will def. miss majority of the people that I met b/c they are the ones who sum up my high school years. Even though I always complain how school is such a drag and how I wanted this day to come, now I don’t want it to come. It’s time for me to step out of my comfort zone and move onto college. I am an adult now (well not until late Sept. but still). I am a Thurgood Marshall Students @UCSD. I am nervous yet excited to begin my adulthood. I am sure I will make a lot of mistakes my mom would scream at me for, but I have confidence because God is always right besides me and I have a family where I can come back to. This year, I had the chance to get to know a lot of people. We’ve been at the same school for 7 years together but it took upto senior year to finally talk. But even though it’s late, I am extremely glad that I got to know those people. No regrets (=
I can’t really feel that it’s the end and now all I have is summer before I leave to SD. I am on the part of the rollercoaster ride when we are going up, getting ready to face and encounter many ups & downs in life. But I’m going to stay strong and my head held high with my heart focused towards God. I pray for my parents and friends here back in LA. I really hope that I meet a lot of good people. I believe in God and I believe that He will take care of me. So that I don’t need to worry.
Tomorrow and Friday I will not be going to school. because I’m going to UCSD for my orientation!! Somewhat excited but kinda not. Not really expecting a lot. I just hope there are a lot of people that I’ll get along with @TMC. Sadly, I won’t be getting my yearbook till Monday :/ Dang. High School’s over already. Seems just like yesterday when I took pics for my ID and now we’re getting our cords for our gowns and filling out housing apps. Time really does fly quickly. Imma miss HS. Back then I thought that HS was boring af and I didn’t really accomplish anything. But now that I think about it, I had a lot of good memories with my friends since we’ve known each other since the 6th grade. I’m still in the process of opening up and being less shy. I’m sure college will break my ice though. hehe
Everytime I think about college I’m half scared half excited. But mostly I’m going to miss my parents. Even though I barely see my dad and we don’t really have a strong bond, I will seriously miss him. Just thinking about it makes me sad and regret how I couldn’t spend more time with him and express my affection toward him. We always fight and barely have decent conversations. Therefore, I’m going to study hard and do something to make him proud and actually do something for him. I need to treat him more like a father since I am his only child.
Same goes for my mom. These days we do argue pretty often but I’ll miss those arguments and miss making fun of each other for getting mad for the dumbest reason. Oh man. I’m going to cry on moving day and probably the first week of school. But I don’t like crying so imma hold back my tears. Well imma try to.
Even though I don’t have any siblings and have distant relationships with my other family members and even my own family @home, I am really thankful that I even have a family and a home. I thank God for giving me the parents that are truly caring even if we struggle to show our affections for one another.
Thinking about my parents makes me want to work super super hard when I go off to college and make a lot of money and let them live with complete comfort. I want to pay it all back to them because it will be my turn to serve them. I want my mom to live in a luxurious house where the sun shines through the window unlike our apt at the moment. where she can enjoy her coffee while watering her flowers. And for my dad, I want to buy him a nice car, since he is into driving and mechanics. I just hope one day that our whole family knows how much we care for each other.
Summer needs to be productive and most def need to spend it with the fam bam.
Met the cuzzo today. and gave me a jacket from his work :) yay haha. man..could’ve watched hangover @his place but mama told me to go home-___-. i wanna go to the gym right now…but i kinda don’t. i feel lazy right now. hehe. i ate so much today!! ate @this german restaurant called Wurstkuche? it was goooood :) then ate jamba juice. then crumbs cupcake. then ate @home. feel like a fatass. i’m taking practice test questions for the driver’s permit test thang. idk why but even though it sounds easy, i feel like imma fail..haha reallllly hope i don’t.
these days @school, we don’t do anything. like literally. we don’t do ANYTHING. prob cus of ap’s and what not but seniors got it realllll chill and since its cst week next week its prob gonna be more chill cus we don’t even have to go to school early :) man..imma miss HS even though it wasn’t that great. college is gonna be so tense. but i’m excited (= meeting new people!! hehe. gotta make myself a more people-person. i’m becoming too MIA and antisocial these days :\ gotta change that.
i wanna go somewhere over summerrrrrrrrrr. not going to korea this time :( i wanna go to hawaii or cancun or….even a road trip. heh. TRAVEL
this post is pretty pointless. but i don’t really have anything to do even though my mom’s always telling me to study…i think she’s telling me to study and memorize vocab words more than the days when i was studying for my SAT’s. she’s like realllllly worried abt me these days cus she NEVER see’s me study and i have a C in calc. i’m really worried about that too but…sighh :(
wellllllll i guess this post is getting a lil too long so i’ll end it here. toodles ;)
This will be my last entry written specifically for you; beginning with the launch of our new site in early September, I’ll begin focusing on the future class of 2011. I hope that you guys won’t be strangers; stay in touch either in person (come visit us!) or online (please drop by the blogs from time to time and say hi).
As you begin your college experience, and I prepare for my 10-year college reunion, I thought I’d leave you with the things that, in retrospect, I think are important as you navigate the next four years. I hope that some of them are helpful.
Your friends will change a lot over the next four years. Let them.
Call someone you love back home a few times a week, even if just for a few minutes.
In college more than ever before, songs will attach themselves to memories. Every month or two, make a mix cd, mp3 folder, whatever - just make sure you keep copies of these songs. Ten years out, they’ll be as effective as a journal in taking you back to your favorite moments.
Take naps in the middle of the afternoon with reckless abandon.
Adjust your schedule around when you are most productive and creative. If you’re nocturnal and do your best work late at night, embrace that. It may be the only time in your life when you can.
If you write your best papers the night before they are due, don’t let people tell you that you “should be more organized” or that you “should plan better.” Different things work for different people. Personally, I worked best under pressure - so I always procrastinated… and always kicked ass (which annoyed my friends to no end). ;-) Use the freedom that comes with not having grades first semester to experiment and see what works best for you.
At least a few times in your college career, do something fun and irresponsible when you should be studying. The night before my freshman year psych final, my roommate somehow scored front row seats to the Indigo Girls at a venue 2 hours away. I didn’t do so well on the final, but I haven’t thought about psych since 1993. I’ve thought about the experience of going to that show (with the guy who is now my son’s godfather) at least once a month ever since.
Become friends with your favorite professors. Recognize that they can learn from you too - in fact, that’s part of the reason they chose to be professors.
Carve out an hour every single day to be alone. (Sleeping doesn’t count.)
Go on dates. Don’t feel like every date has to turn into a relationship.
Don’t date someone your roommate has been in a relationship with.
When your friends’ parents visit, include them. You’ll get free food, etc., and you’ll help them to feel like they’re cool, hangin’ with the hip college kids.
In the first month of college, send a hand-written letter to someone who made college possible for you and describe your adventures thus far. It will mean a lot to him/her now, and it will mean a lot to you in ten years when he/she shows it to you.
Embrace the differences between you and your classmates. Always be asking yourself, “what can I learn from this person?” More of your education will come from this than from any classroom.
All-nighters are entirely overrated.
For those of you who have come to college in a long-distance relationship with someone from high school: despite what many will tell you, it can work. The key is to not let your relationship interfere with your college experience. If you don’t want to date anyone else, that’s totally fine! What’s not fine, however, is missing out on a lot of defining experiences because you’re on the phone with your boyfriend/girlfriend for three hours every day.
Working things out between friends is best done in person, not over email. (IM does not count as “in person.”) Often someone’s facial expressions will tell you more than his/her words.
Don’t be afraid of (or excited by) the co-ed bathrooms. The thrill is over in about 2 seconds.
Wednesday is the middle of the week; therefore on wednesday night the week is more than half over. You should celebrate accordingly. (It makes thursday and friday a lot more fun.)
Welcome failure into your lives. It’s how we grow. What matters is not that you failed, but that you recovered.
Take some classes that have nothing to do with your major(s), purely for the fun of it.
It’s important to think about the future, but it’s more important to be present in the now. You won’t get the most out of college if you think of it as a stepping stone.
When you’re living on a college campus with 400 things going on every second of every day, watching TV is pretty much a waste of your time and a waste of your parents’ money. If you’re going to watch, watch with friends so at least you can call it a “valuable social experience.”
Don’t be afraid to fall in love. When it happens, don’t take it for granted. Celebrate it, but don’t let it define your college experience.
Much of the time you once had for pleasure reading is going to disappear. Keep a list of the books you would have read had you had the time, so that you can start reading them when you graduate.
Things that seem like the end of the world really do become funny with a little time and distance. Knowing this, forget the embarassment and skip to the good part.
Every once in awhile, there will come an especially powerful moment when you can actually feel that an experience has changed who you are. Embrace these, even if they are painful.
No matter what your political or religious beliefs, be open-minded. You’re going to be challenged over the next four years in ways you can’t imagine, across all fronts. You can’t learn if you’re closed off.
If you need to get a job, find something that you actually enjoy. Just because it’s work doesn’t mean it has to suck.
Don’t always lead. It’s good to follow sometimes.
Take a lot of pictures. One of my major regrets in life is that I didn’t take more pictures in college. My excuse was the cost of film and processing. Digital cameras are cheap and you have plenty of hard drive space, so you have no excuse.
Your health and safety are more important than anything.
Ask for help. Often.
Half of you will be in the bottom half of your class at any given moment. Way more than half of you will be in the bottom half of your class at some point in the next four years. Get used to it.
In ten years very few of you will look as good as you do right now, so secretly revel in how hot you are before it’s too late.
In the long run, where you go to college doesn’t matter as much as what you do with the opportunities you’re given there. The MIT name on your resume won’t mean much if that’s the only thing on your resume. As a student here, you will have access to a variety of unique opportunities that no one else will ever have - don’t waste them.
On the flip side, don’t try to do everything. Balance = well-being.
Make perspective a priority. If you’re too close to something to have good perspective, rely on your friends to help you.
Eat badly sometimes. It’s the last time in your life when you can do this without feeling guilty about it.
Make a complete ass of yourself at least once, preferably more. It builds character.
Wash your sheets more than once a year. Trust me on this one.
If you are in a relationship and none of your friends want to hang out with you and your significant other, pay attention. They usually know better than you do.
Don’t be afraid of the weird pizza topping combinations that your new friend from across the country loves. Some of the truly awful ones actually taste pretty good. Expand your horizons.
Explore the campus thoroughly. Don’t get caught.
Life is too short to stick with a course of study that you’re no longer excited about. Switch, even if it complicates things.
Tattoos are permanent. Be very certain.
Don’t make fun of prefrosh. That was you like 2 hours ago.
Enjoy every second of the next four years. It is impossible to describe how quickly they pass.
This is the only time in your lives when your only real responsibility is to learn. Try to remember how lucky you are every day.
Be yourself. Create. Inspire, and be inspired. Grow. Laugh. Learn. Love.