Our Mind Is a Battlefield. Stay Focused.

Dang. Graduation is already here. I knew this day would come, but it came so quickly. I”m here thinking what I should wear under my gown on graduation day but I’m always looking back as my yearbook sits in front of me. Not a lot happened during High school but I had A LOT of AWESOME memories that CAN NOT be replaced. I will def. miss majority of the people that I met b/c they are the ones who sum up my high school years. Even though I always complain how school is such a drag and how I wanted this day to come, now I don’t want it to come. It’s time for me to step out of my comfort zone and move onto college. I am an adult now (well not until late Sept. but still). I am a Thurgood Marshall Students @UCSD. I am nervous yet excited to begin my adulthood. I am sure I will make a lot of mistakes my mom would scream at me for, but I have confidence because God is always right besides me and I have a family where I can come back to. This year, I had the chance to get to know a lot of people. We’ve been at the same school for 7 years together but it took upto senior year to finally talk. But even though it’s late, I am extremely glad that I got to know those people. No regrets (= 

I can’t really feel that it’s the end and now all I have is summer before I leave to SD. I am on the part of the rollercoaster ride when we are going up, getting ready to face and encounter many ups & downs in life. But I’m going to stay strong and my head held high with my heart focused towards God. I pray for my parents and friends here back in LA. I really hope that I meet a lot of good people. I believe in God and I believe that He will take care of me. So that I don’t need to worry. 

Goodbye LACES. You’ve been good to me <3

I’ll miss you. 

Tomorrow and Friday I will not be going to school. because I’m going to UCSD for my orientation!! Somewhat excited but kinda not. Not really expecting a lot. I just hope there are a lot of people that I’ll get along with @TMC. Sadly, I won’t be getting my yearbook till Monday :/ Dang. High School’s over already. Seems just like yesterday when I took pics for my ID and now we’re getting our cords for our gowns and filling out housing apps. Time really does fly quickly. Imma miss HS. Back then I thought that HS was boring af and I didn’t really accomplish anything. But now that I think about it, I had a lot of good memories with my friends since we’ve known each other since the 6th grade. I’m still in the process of opening up and being less shy. I’m sure college will break my ice though. hehe

Everytime I think about college I’m half scared half excited. But mostly I’m going to miss my parents. Even though I barely see my dad and we don’t really have a strong bond, I will seriously miss him. Just thinking about it makes me sad and regret how I couldn’t spend more time with him and express my affection toward him. We always fight and barely have decent conversations. Therefore, I’m going to study hard and do something to make him proud and actually do something for him. I need to treat him more like a father since I am his only child.

Same goes for my mom. These days we do argue pretty often but I’ll miss those arguments and miss making fun of each other for getting mad for the dumbest reason. Oh man. I’m going to cry on moving day and probably the first week of school. But I don’t like crying so imma hold back my tears. Well imma try to.

Even though I don’t have any siblings and have distant relationships with my other family members and even my own family @home, I am really thankful that I even have a family and a home. I thank God for giving me the parents that are truly caring even if we struggle to show our affections for one another.

Thinking about my parents makes me want to work super super hard when I go off to college and make a lot of money and let them live with complete comfort. I want to pay it all back to them because it will be my turn to serve them. I want my mom to live in a luxurious house where the sun shines through the window unlike our apt at the moment. where she can enjoy her coffee while watering her flowers. And for my dad, I want to buy him a nice car, since he is into driving and mechanics. I just hope one day that our whole family knows how much we care for each other.

Summer needs to be productive and most def need to spend it with the fam bam.

I love you.