pretty unproductive….and it kinda upsets me cus I guess I expected this summer to be super exciting and filled with random stuff like adventures and what not BUT eh.,not really. welll, summer barely started for me. my 3rd week is just ending this week. tryna find a job but its pretty tough. still working on it though (= need some $$ to playplay and save up.
it doesn’t even feel like summer break honestly. it doesn’t even feel like i graduated or even finished high school. whenever I sign into my UCSD account or fill out paperwork for financial aid stuff I do feel it a bit but thats just a once in a while thing. I’m not gonna lie, I’m pretty scared/nervous for college but at the same time i’m excited (= imma meet new people, not have classes everyday, experience the dorm life, and finally take another step in life as an adult. I’m for sure going to be homesick. missing all my friends and church fam. even the ones who I just got to know senior year. but most importantly, my mom and dad. mos def. But that’s the part of growing up so I won’t be too sad about it (= haha. I strongly believe that God is in control and He will protect so I’m not too worried.
wellllll retreat & vbs are coming up~ pretty excited for retreat haha since it’ll be my last one kinda. :/